I didn’t get a job today that I really thought I would get - I was told I was a very close second and it came down to something I guess minor. I don’t know how I will ever get jobs anywhere if I can’t get a job in that museum, where I have worked before and have a good relationship with the staff, nor if I can’t seem to get a job to get experience to be more competitive with other applicants who have more experience. 

I am constantly freaking out about 1. why I thought I could even ever get a job in a museum 2. why I spent 60k on my education 3. the fact that the next 5 years minimum are going to be me struggling to get a full time job. 

I finished uni 6 months ago so I realise I am a very recent graduate and I need to give it time, but it’s so hard not to be depressed at my career prospects. There has to be another way around and I know I will find it eventually but I just feel so sad and full of regrets now. I am travelling for work (like I know I am SO LUCKY to be doing this contract rn so I should count myself lucky but anyway) and I just really want a hug but I am alone :-(

• ONE YEAR AGO I first discussed my idea for my thesis w the faculty + my supervisor
• SIX MONTHS AGO I did a practice assignment on the topic 
• AND ALSO submitted a proposal that was accepted
• YESTERDAY, two weeks into the semester, my supervisor tells me that she thinks it’s not feasible and I need to think of a new idea

u know ur growing up when you type ’t’ in your browser and the first website that comes up is Trove and not Tumblr.com

I am so busy!!! I don’t know when I’ll get to sleep in next!!! This is good bc I am doing a lot of excellent things etc but it makes me feel very worried and also I wanna hang out in bed ya know!!!!

i am feelin so legit lately bc i am one of the editors of the uni magazine / therefore being given media passes to festivals and shows / going to an interstate conference tomorrow / starting my masters this year / when did i become this real adult person??

I don’t know what to do about something!! This decision is making me feel sick!! I don’t know what the right thing to do is!! How do you make Life Decisions of significance?!